doesn't that sound nice?

so apparently when i'm busy blogging is the first thing to go. i should get my priorities straight.

one thing i've been thinking about a lot lately is the idea that God exists outside of time. i used to find this mind-boggling and almost frightening. frightening because of the idea of heaven in conjunction with eternity and eternal existence. i didn't want my soul to be dead and over per se, but the idea of me continuing on FOREVER seemed SCARY.

but i've been reading a lot of cs lewis lately. i've been on a huge cs lewis kick since the spring and just finished another one a couple of days ago, the screwtape letters. cs lewis talks about the desires we have that are not or cannot be fulfilled on earth. like let's say i had a desire for a great, loving friendship, but never experienced one. since i have this desire for a good thing, God has to be the one who gave me that good desire, and if it can't be fulfilled here (although of course i actually do have friends, contrary to what some liar might have told you), then it holds true that that desire will someday be fulfilled for me, specifically, in heaven. i like that! and then i was thinking about it more, and i read a letter that cs lewis wrote that talked about the need for unpressured time being something that will be fulfilled in heaven. the idea is that there won't be/isn't time in heaven at all. so all the time flying by/not enough time to do anything/it seems like yesterday when i was in high school/i don't have time to sit and think/etc. things we think every day, and the desire for MORE time, or NO time, will be met in heaven where time does not exist and God exists outside of time. it's not that minutes and seconds and hours and years will be dragging by unceasingly, it's that time will not be a factor - we'll just BE. and do things. and have relationships. without any time pressure. doesn't that sound nice? it does to me.

so that's my deep thought for the day. call me jack handy.