my crane wife, my crane wife.....
i'm listening to the crane wife 1 & 2 by the decemberists right now. it totally changed my mood about what i wanted to write about today. earlier i thought i wanted to blog about various things, and now i just want to sit still and listen. but i think i'm getting in the swing of things now. just had to build up a little momentum.
i'm afraid of pain. i was thinking about this tonight while i was walking emmy. she's still a puppy (barely! can you believe she's almost a year old???) and learning to be a good walker, so she gets treats when she's in the right place (next to me on my right side). she loves treats. sometimes she bites my fingers, accidentally i think, and it really hurts. on more than one occasion i've come home and found out that my thumb was actually bleeding. there are a couple of tiny blood spots on my super cute green down coat from costco (yes, it is a little girls coat, thank you). so that really hurts. i think i deal with pain pretty well when it's actually happening. but the thought of pain, the anticipation, really freaks me out. i hate getting shots. i've never given blood. i'm such a wuss. i should go get a physical before i go to build houses in tijuana this year, because i haven't had a tetanus shot in ages and i think my hepatits is way out of date too. who even knows what shots i'm supposed to have anymore. but i'm scared! i wish someone could just surprise me with a shot when i'm not looking. giving blood is a whole other story - things piercing my skin and remaining there for MINUTES on end really creep me out. so gross. so disturbing. the thought of an IV makes me cringe.
we're having a blood drive at work tomorrow but i'm not participating. are you shocked? i should make an effort to get over it, but for now i'm just going to be a baby.
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that is kind of interesting. I feel like I should be more afraid of pain than you but there's not much i love more than giving blood. I dont know why. I mean part of it is knowing that I'm saving countless lives but also i think it's really interesting to watch the blood come out. It kind of makes me feel brave too. The pain really isn't that bad, except when they can't find the vein and they dig around, irritating your ulnar nerve so you get ulnar neuritis and your hand is numb for days...but that's only happened once, and because i think i have weirdly small veins. But anyway, I think next time your work has a blood drive you should try it. You are a brave person in a lot of ways and I know you like to challenge yourself, so I think you should go for it.
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