i'm addicted to chocolate chips. i think i might be slowly evolving into what people so cleverly refer to as a chocoholic. i love chocolate. dark chocolate. chocolate chips poured into and then fished out of a mug so that they don't melt in the palm of my hand. they're delicious. the best thing is that the more i read about chocolate, dark chocolate, specifically, is the more i learn how good it is for you. so many antioxidants, so good for the heart, so much deliciousness. as runnersworld.com told me, chocolate is, in fact, a plant food. of course that means that you're supposed to consume it in as close to its natural state as possible, i.e. not much sugar, milk, caramel, etc. added. but that's fine with me. as long as it's semisweet. semifine semisweet chocolate.
so i've been thinking about something. i feel a little awkward about it. but i think i want to try to be a writer. i don't know what i want to write. magazine articles? childrens books? online articles? fiction? commentaries? blogs? there's a lot that i like and a lot that i'm not sure i'd be great at, but the fact is that i like to write quite a bit. i might even like writing as much as i like reading, which is a lot. also, i think i'm a pretty good writer. i'm probably not often going to showcase my best work HERE per se, and contrary to what i may lead you to believe, i do know how to capitalize in the right places...but overall, i can write well. so that is a very vague, very fuzzy announcement of what i would like to do. nothing concrete here thanks. but it's only recently that i've realized that maybe i shouldn't just say that in my ideal world where i'm living my dream life i'd be a writer and start trying to think of ways that i can be a writer in my actual life.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Monday, February 12, 2007
semi-extraordinary circumstances
i am so tired. last night instead of going to bed right when we got home from a meeting, we watced the tivo'd grammys. (grammies? grammys. that's right.) i thought they were pretty good though. i was surprised by how much of the recording we actually wanted to watch. i thought the girl who won the contest to perform with justin timberlake did a really good job. she was oh so confident. and, i think that justin was nice to her - instead of dancing off all over the stage, he stayed right by her and the camera was therefore on her almost the whole time. it's everything i would want for my first appearance at the grammys. i'll be recreating that moment next year.
i missed my bus today. that's why i'm here blogging right now. i feel guilty when i get to work late, but i planned out part of my day and how i'm going to start work on some important projects while i was out walking emmy...so that counts as working, right? just as good as being there. better to be at home thinking about something productive than sitting at work with a blank mind wishing i were at home. right?
my uncle stopped by our house while we were at work last week and dropped off a late christmas present. it's a book called "girls". i skimmed the inside cover and learned it was about twins. i was pretty excited to read what the jacket said was a great book about twins. it turns out that the twins are conjoined twins. it might turn out to be a really, really great book, and i'm not saying that there should not be novels written about conjoined twins, but i feel like every newish book i read lately that is supposed to be about just plain life has to have some really unusual twist to it. they're all about ordinary people in semi-extraordinary circumstances. like this one i just read about twins (twins again - weird) who were separated at birth because one had downs syndrome and it was the 60s and her dad gave her away and she was raised by a nurse and how her family falls apart because of it. it was kind of a good book at times. but i feel like some of the books that get a lot of buzz lately have to have some sort of edgy concept. i would be interested in reading a book about regular, boring old twins. or families that aren't dysfunctional and people that don't do drugs or die. maybe that's why i decided to read the oh so wholesome and "regular" anne of the island this weekend. but i'm sure i'll end up reading "girls" too. i'll probably really like it and then maybe i'll regret everything i've said. i like getting books as gifts.
well, time to get ready to catch bus #2.
i missed my bus today. that's why i'm here blogging right now. i feel guilty when i get to work late, but i planned out part of my day and how i'm going to start work on some important projects while i was out walking emmy...so that counts as working, right? just as good as being there. better to be at home thinking about something productive than sitting at work with a blank mind wishing i were at home. right?
my uncle stopped by our house while we were at work last week and dropped off a late christmas present. it's a book called "girls". i skimmed the inside cover and learned it was about twins. i was pretty excited to read what the jacket said was a great book about twins. it turns out that the twins are conjoined twins. it might turn out to be a really, really great book, and i'm not saying that there should not be novels written about conjoined twins, but i feel like every newish book i read lately that is supposed to be about just plain life has to have some really unusual twist to it. they're all about ordinary people in semi-extraordinary circumstances. like this one i just read about twins (twins again - weird) who were separated at birth because one had downs syndrome and it was the 60s and her dad gave her away and she was raised by a nurse and how her family falls apart because of it. it was kind of a good book at times. but i feel like some of the books that get a lot of buzz lately have to have some sort of edgy concept. i would be interested in reading a book about regular, boring old twins. or families that aren't dysfunctional and people that don't do drugs or die. maybe that's why i decided to read the oh so wholesome and "regular" anne of the island this weekend. but i'm sure i'll end up reading "girls" too. i'll probably really like it and then maybe i'll regret everything i've said. i like getting books as gifts.
well, time to get ready to catch bus #2.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
you're perspiring!
so maybe right now i'm not lounging but instead filing papers in the office. it's probably because brad is working on replacing the disgusting toilet that was in our downstairs bathroom when we moved in and laying a new floor there. the solo lounging was making me feel a little bit guilty, so i moved on to filing.
yesterday i had something potentially super embarrassing happen. one of my coworkers (alicia) is in the hospital due to some issues with her pregnancy, so another coworker (shannon) and i went to visit her. we were in alicia's room, just talking and visiting. alicia's husband was there too. the room was really, really hot. and there was an IV in her arm, and the nurse came in and made some adjustments to it. as you may recall, i don't like needles, things that remain in the skin when they don't belong there, or the anticipation of pain. so the hot room, plus all of the medical happenings, resulted in me almost fainting twice. i used to faint fairly often. not OFTEN, but predictably, once a year or so. but i haven't fainted for i think four years. but we were in that super hot room, and i was standing up for a really long time, and then, like a huge, sensitive baby, i realized how hot i was, and that i was really, really dizzy, and i knew, OMG, i'm going to faint!
but i didn't really want to do it in front of people who a) i don't know especially well or who b) were experiencing and dealing with genuine medical problems. so i said, "i'm going to go make a phone call real quick!" and i raced out, dizzily, into the hall. no one was around. i went around the corner to sort of hide myself, and i collapsed on the ground. not a FAINTING collapse. but i knew i had to sit down and put my head down. so i did. but what i really wanted to do was lie down, so i sort of leaned over on my side. i really, really wanted to throw up, but i didn't know where to find a bathroom except in alicia's room, and i just felt like, NO, i will not faint and throw up in the room of someone who is hospitalized for genuine medical reasons. so i held it together. i was really, really sweaty. and i just lay there in the hallway for probably five or ten minutes. it was ridiculous. i don't know if it was being at the hospital or what that made me feel fainty. i didn't think i was quite that big of a baby, but maybe i am.
eventually i felt better. (i felt miserable for a long time - i think actually fainting and throwing up would have actually made me feel a lot better, but what can you do?) so i went back to alicia's room, where shannon announced, "you're perspiring!" awesome. but they just thought it was because the room was hot. i sat down right away and remainined there until i thought we were going to leave. but then, after i had gotten up and we were headed out the door, they just kept talking and talking for AGES. and then i realized, oh my gosh, too much standing, i'm going to faint again! somehow i made it out into the hallway, and shannon and i were walking along, me with my head spinning and feeling very pukey, when i told her, "um, i think i need to sit down. i'm not feeling too well." really, i don't know how i string normal sentences together when i'm about to faint, because my insides feel insane, but somehow i seem to do it. so i sat in the hallway again and put my head down again and felt like an idiot again. but shannon was very nice and got me a cup of water and then took me to arby's and bought me a sandwich. if she thought i was a freak and a baby, she didn't let on.
i have since become very concerned that when erin gives birth in june and we go to visit her in the hospital, i will faint. i also realized that i should not join the cast of lost or grey's anatomy because i could not handle the blood and general gruesomeness, fake or otherwise.
yesterday i had something potentially super embarrassing happen. one of my coworkers (alicia) is in the hospital due to some issues with her pregnancy, so another coworker (shannon) and i went to visit her. we were in alicia's room, just talking and visiting. alicia's husband was there too. the room was really, really hot. and there was an IV in her arm, and the nurse came in and made some adjustments to it. as you may recall, i don't like needles, things that remain in the skin when they don't belong there, or the anticipation of pain. so the hot room, plus all of the medical happenings, resulted in me almost fainting twice. i used to faint fairly often. not OFTEN, but predictably, once a year or so. but i haven't fainted for i think four years. but we were in that super hot room, and i was standing up for a really long time, and then, like a huge, sensitive baby, i realized how hot i was, and that i was really, really dizzy, and i knew, OMG, i'm going to faint!
but i didn't really want to do it in front of people who a) i don't know especially well or who b) were experiencing and dealing with genuine medical problems. so i said, "i'm going to go make a phone call real quick!" and i raced out, dizzily, into the hall. no one was around. i went around the corner to sort of hide myself, and i collapsed on the ground. not a FAINTING collapse. but i knew i had to sit down and put my head down. so i did. but what i really wanted to do was lie down, so i sort of leaned over on my side. i really, really wanted to throw up, but i didn't know where to find a bathroom except in alicia's room, and i just felt like, NO, i will not faint and throw up in the room of someone who is hospitalized for genuine medical reasons. so i held it together. i was really, really sweaty. and i just lay there in the hallway for probably five or ten minutes. it was ridiculous. i don't know if it was being at the hospital or what that made me feel fainty. i didn't think i was quite that big of a baby, but maybe i am.
eventually i felt better. (i felt miserable for a long time - i think actually fainting and throwing up would have actually made me feel a lot better, but what can you do?) so i went back to alicia's room, where shannon announced, "you're perspiring!" awesome. but they just thought it was because the room was hot. i sat down right away and remainined there until i thought we were going to leave. but then, after i had gotten up and we were headed out the door, they just kept talking and talking for AGES. and then i realized, oh my gosh, too much standing, i'm going to faint again! somehow i made it out into the hallway, and shannon and i were walking along, me with my head spinning and feeling very pukey, when i told her, "um, i think i need to sit down. i'm not feeling too well." really, i don't know how i string normal sentences together when i'm about to faint, because my insides feel insane, but somehow i seem to do it. so i sat in the hallway again and put my head down again and felt like an idiot again. but shannon was very nice and got me a cup of water and then took me to arby's and bought me a sandwich. if she thought i was a freak and a baby, she didn't let on.
i have since become very concerned that when erin gives birth in june and we go to visit her in the hospital, i will faint. i also realized that i should not join the cast of lost or grey's anatomy because i could not handle the blood and general gruesomeness, fake or otherwise.
lounging
when i make a goal for myself, i kind of like to decimate it. i like to beat the goal to a pulp just to prove i can. i don't think that's necessarily a good thing. but i've been really running a lot lately to try and meet my new year's goal of running 1000 miles in 2007. except that i realized that if i ran over 20 miles per week, i could decimate that goal, and i've been trying to. i knew my mileage was not so hot this week so today i went out and ran 11 miles. it was really kind of nice, because it was so much easier than it used to be when i'd run longer distances. i'm faster and stronger, which makes it much more enjoyable. plus, i loaded up my ipod with podcasts which made everything go much faster. i really like relevant magazine's weekly podcast. and i've been listening to the scrubs weekly podcast a lot lately too. that show is so funny.
what was not nice about running today, or doing anything outside lately, is that the world is a big pile of fog, mist, slush, and mud. when i got back from running, i was filthy. when i walked emmy today, she ended up with mud droplets over every inch of her lower self. gross. and it makes me feel gloomy, sometimes, and like my life is stuck in a rut. but what i think is actually stuck in a rut is THE WEATHER. so what it all comes down to is, i am so ready for spring. or at least daylight savings, which is coming way early this year! victory.
brad and i are supposed to go and eat a very delicious meal at the mustard seed tonight with friends like autumn and ross and christy, which i am very excited about. i love going out to eat. and here's how i plan on spending my saturday otherwise:
1. reading. i don't have anything super exciting and new to read right now, so i may be rereading "anne of the island". anne of green gables grows up and goes to college. then she marries gilbert blythe and gets married and he becomes a doctor and she raises six children in a very charming early twentieth century canadian community. but all of that takes course over eight books. today she'll just go to college.
2. lounging and semi-napping on the couch.
3. watching episodes from veronica mars, season one. the best season in my opinion. it's such a good show!
4. watching chocoholic weekend shows on the food network. i think i'm going to make molten chocolate cakes this week.
as you can see, i've got a very busy day ahead of me, so i have to get to it.
what was not nice about running today, or doing anything outside lately, is that the world is a big pile of fog, mist, slush, and mud. when i got back from running, i was filthy. when i walked emmy today, she ended up with mud droplets over every inch of her lower self. gross. and it makes me feel gloomy, sometimes, and like my life is stuck in a rut. but what i think is actually stuck in a rut is THE WEATHER. so what it all comes down to is, i am so ready for spring. or at least daylight savings, which is coming way early this year! victory.
brad and i are supposed to go and eat a very delicious meal at the mustard seed tonight with friends like autumn and ross and christy, which i am very excited about. i love going out to eat. and here's how i plan on spending my saturday otherwise:
1. reading. i don't have anything super exciting and new to read right now, so i may be rereading "anne of the island". anne of green gables grows up and goes to college. then she marries gilbert blythe and gets married and he becomes a doctor and she raises six children in a very charming early twentieth century canadian community. but all of that takes course over eight books. today she'll just go to college.
2. lounging and semi-napping on the couch.
3. watching episodes from veronica mars, season one. the best season in my opinion. it's such a good show!
4. watching chocoholic weekend shows on the food network. i think i'm going to make molten chocolate cakes this week.
as you can see, i've got a very busy day ahead of me, so i have to get to it.
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